Steve and I talked this morning. I needed time to pray about this and hear the answer in my heart. He's in agreement. We're finished trying for a second baby. No egg donor. No adoption. We're happy with our little family.
I still need time to get over these feelings. My feeling now is that the baby fever was not put in my heart by God and it's just not meant to be. I can't help but feel like I've let Steve and Stefanie down. Like a failure as a woman. Please don't tell me not to feel like this. I feel it and I need to finish feeling it.
We really wanted Stef to have a sibling. We each have one sibling and wanted her to have that close sharing bond growing up. We also wanted her to have someone after we're gone. She can never say we didn't try.
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Its ok to have these feelings. I have my own regrets about now trying for another after Rebecca. Own your feelings, they are yours. May your heart heal soon.
You have the right to feel however you want to feel. Don't let anyone tell you different.
You are in my prayers! It's hard when our plan is not God's plan, but He definitely has a plan for you! Hugs and Kisses
Awww, Terri, i agree, you have the right to your feelings. I'm sorry. But you know sometimes when people quit trying is when they do get pregnant. You ever noticed that?
Just rememeber you found another sister much later in your life, who's to say the same won't happen for Stef. Hope you find peace quickly. Love you Sis.
Terri, you are in my prayers too. I hope you find peace in God's plan for you. We're all here for you anytime!
I'm so sorry. It's a hard decision to make, and you have every right to grieve. But also know that you are already blessed with a beautiful family.
Could not have said it better than Linda.
*Hugs*
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